you don’t even know. so far today i’ve done perfectly diet-wise. i just finished shoulders and arms p90x and ab ripper x, both of which i kept up with and i wasn’t able to keep up with ab ripper x last time i did it. i’ve gained noticeable flexibility, i lost weight… today is a perfect day. NOTHING can ruin this day.
my father and i are going to go on a diet together. it’s really difficult to eat right in my house alone simply because i live in a house of guys (i have 3 brothers and their friends and my friends) who eat a bunch of junk food. but he promised me he’d diet with me so it’s encouraging to know that someone’s right there with me.
a little background info: my older brother just moved out 8 months ago to a far away city. he was a huge reason why i was depressed and still am depressed. even though he moved out 8 months ago, i haven’t spoken to him in 9 or 10 months. he’s in town for two weeks because his best friend is getting married.
so the other day, i was telling my dad how i needed to go grocery shopping with him so we could pick out foods for this diet. my brother hasn’t spoken to me the whole time he’s been here except to bash me about how i’ll never get anywhere in life and how much of a failure i am and how i treat him like shit and that he has five sisters or some shit and he can “erase me from his life”. but he decides to comment.
“OR, you can eat whatever the hell you want and just exercise.”
i respond with, “OR, you can do both, like i’m doing.”
so he asks, “why do you want to go on a diet?”
i decide to choose my words carefully, because if i call myself fat in front of him, well, i wasn’t sure what type of reaction i’d get. so i said, “i’m tired of being big.”
starting weight: 170 lbs
current weight (11/3/11): 155 lbs
month's goal weight: 140 lbs by jan. 1st
ultimate goal weight: 130 lbs or when i'm happy
❝ about the thinspiration journal ❞
my name is tori, and i’m the person behind the thinspiration journal. i created this blog as a way to motivate myself and help others through the hardships they face on their weight loss journey. i generally won’t post much about my own personal life or progress. if you want to see any of that, check out my progress blog. www.theprogressjournal.tumblr.com
feel free to send me asks about anything. i’m always happy to listen, help, answer any questions, etc. and i’m great fun to talk to. i swear it.